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The End is the Beginning

Graduation, Commencement, whatever we call it, both signifies not a sweet ending but a way to start a new beginning. A beginning of this lifelong adventure. It is the time that we (graduates) look forward to moving on to the next stage of our lives.

From the sleepless nights spent with overlapping paper works, tons of review notes and the challenging recitations and examinations we undertook, graveyard shifts, meeting deadlines for requirements and ample of prerequisites — all of these paved our way.

Taking up this course has never been that easy, especially when in the first place, my heart isn’t there. And as we all know, a greater chance of succeeding is by loving what we are doing, isn’t? But life is about taking risks, so I took up this course even though it doesn’t really make my heart sing.

Subsequently, I still didn’t get to love Nursing. But it has made me realized that it is really all about CARING. A care that comes within our hearts. Because merely caring couldn’t bring you to the success that you’ve been aiming for. I mean, you may have performed all the care or interventions needed for the patient but at the end of the day, despite all the stress it brought, you would feel a sense of fulfillment if you really love your work.

But even so, it still doesn’t break my spirit that I’d pass the NLE this July. Not loving doesn’t mean quitting. My strong eagerness to grab my license ignites greater than a hot flaming torch and bursts more powerful and colorful than fireworks.

The end is the beginning. The end is definitely just the beginning of a never-ending journey. It could lead us nowhere or we may put up on a tragic end or a joyous one but it is the journey that matters, in the end.

Being ignored

Yes, being rejected and ignored are both definitely painful, but for me, being ignored hurts even more. I could accept rejection even though I have to suffer. At the very least, I know that I am not wanted and that I could convince myself that there is nothing more that I can do about it but move forward. At least, there is something to accept. If someone ignores you, you don’t have any answers to hold on to. You would even hope, only to hope for nothing. You will find it hard to even stand up and walk away because, somewhere, you are looking for answers. You are left confused. You would even find it hard to peacefully sleep at night. For me, it would be sad to be ignored just when you have poured down all your emotions, thinking that these emotions crafted by the heart deserve some answers, even if it has to be for the worse.

Exit Interview

As one of the prerequistes of a graduating student, Exit Interview will always be a part of it, so having a professional image, it involves not only the ideas and corporate involvements. You should also dress the part, so I opted to wear a prim and proper decorum but of course with my own style.

What I wore is a black and white-long sleeved woven polo with cut-and-sew color block body and sleeves detail paired with mustard pants. Definitely love the color blocking!

Wearing: button-down polo (Oxygen), messenger bag (Solo), patent shoes (Wade).

A day well spent

In line with the preparations for the near coming Graduation Day, my friends — Carlo and Phil have accompanied me looking for the outfit that I would be wearing for that said ceremony.

So we drove ourselves to Ayala and with the help of our leg and foot muscles, they did their very best to ramble on for we had promenaded all the contemporary buildings of Greenbelt and Glorietta and even the most outskirts of the mall.

Apart from the muscle pain due to long walk and the crazy boarding experience from different transport systems, consequently, the baggage counter where we had deposited our bags in was then closed when it was the time that we will be claiming it. So, we rushed getting into every front lobbies to ask where’d be able to find our baggage and then finally, after scouring, we got into the customer service where our baggage were sent in. Thanks God!

Anyhow, all the pain and struggle is all worth it. It’s always been that a day spent with friends is always a day well spent. :)

Me and You, Just us Two

I had you in my dreams. This is where my fantasies and unfulfilled hopes do come true. Dreams are indeed my reality. That is the only thing I have, and that is the only way I can have you.

I always wish to be with you. One thing that my heart has been continually beats for. Many times did I think of the moments we once had and also, there were times that I get to think of the moment that we could have when we’re just two.

I was hurt a million times. The pain that was all rooted with all of my unmet expectations. But still, dreaming of being with you has never left me. I just want to know what it feels like being with you, just you and me.

So today, it all came to reality without expecting that it would happen this time. Finally, I got the chance to be with that someone whom I’ve been longing for to be with. I was so happy today and undeniably, every second of it feels like heaven.

Moments like these were one-of-a-kind. It was something that money can’t pay for. And these moments are the ones that I was once wished for and is something that I’d still look forward to.

‘Me and you, just as two..’ doesn’t necessarily mean that you both own a relationship. There may not be a mutual feeling for both of them, but the fact that one is so much in love while the other makes it so special though it doesn’t really mean to him/her, every thing seems to be perfect.

GLADliest 20th

Yesterday held a special celebration of one my closest friends — Gladys. We were so GLAD ‘coz we were part of that very first day of her 20th.

We dined in at Rustica and I must say that we really had a lovely dining experience there, adding up the tons of laughter and giggling moments we had there ‘coz of the handful of ridiculous things that had brought about by each of us.

Well, Gladys is truly a blessing in every sense. She is a loving, thoughtful and a very generous friend. Often times, she gives anything that she could give without hesitation, she has always good ideas and perspectives, no doubt that she has a very well-rounded life, and mostly, she’s been always there especially when we need her most (and so do us). We may had gone a lot of trials but it didn’t break our friendship, moreover, it became stronger as we are right now.

Again, my GLADliest BIRTHDAY to you friend! WE LOVE YOU.. always and forever!! <3

Credits to: PATRICK AZARCON Photography ‘12

I Love You, Goodbye.

As I look into the mirror, I see my other self. By merely looking at it, we’d see a reflection of our physical aspects but as we look deeply into it, we’d see our soul.

My mirror used to have my share of my lonely days. It lets my hidden feelings come out of me and every time I do, all I see is pain. Pain that has never gone with its scar that still remains.

My heart is mirrored by grief and my eyes that want nothing but to cry.

I wasn’t asking for more than anything but a closure that will bring relief to all these pain. I just wanted to restore back my own happiness for it has left me.

My shadow has always been with me, so I wasn’t totally alone. But I began to ask questions, ‘til when will I walk on this pavement of grief? Is there someone for me? When will I meet someone who I can call mine? Will I ever be loved?

My home is still nowhere in sight but my head is help up high. I was a solitary man on this lonely road. I will travel alone, once more, all over again. And as I take the first steps, I’ll try hard to make these feelings fade.

I’m bidding my sweet goodbye though I still love you. I know I wasn’t meant to be a part of you but you still own a big part of me.

One chapter of my life is about to end however, a new chapter begins. I’m finding my way back though you will always abide in me. I will take all the sweet memoirs we had and let the painful episodes be forgotten.

I love you, Goodbye!

One hell of a ride!

Most of us say that when celebrating ones birthday, it should be held on that same day or after but not to pre-celebrate it. But we just didn’t mind that thing and pursued going to Manila and pre-celebrated JM’s day to Pre-Adulthood.

Our first itinerary includes stop at NLEX Shell - where we had our sumptuous lunch prepared by JM’s dad and after that, we went straight to MOA and had gone window shopping. After which, we headed to Star City and had enjoyed the breath-taking rides such as the Star Flyer, Surf Dance, Roller Coaster, and the like.

As the day was ended, I can’t help but to be sad. One thing I’ve realized in life - no matter how happy you were, you’d still be upset or at least be sad afterwards. At my own stance, I was then in a complete state of joy but I still can’t deny the fact that I haven’t escaped the thought of that someone.

Anyway, I hope the birthday celebrant had a great time as much as the great time we had and I’m grateful that we’re still part of his birthday celebration as we’ll always be. It’s truly been one hell of a ride! Welcome to teen-no-more world!! :)

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